end last week, i was honoured to be part of a symposium-career diversity annually inspiring participants to realise their potential. it was great being there, something in me was unleashed and it felt awesome. The workshop was themed, ‘managing change’ And I learnt a lot of great stuff. That nobody can change me, that change can destroy me if not managed well. I have to embrace it, I have to love it. And be flexible to avoid being worn out of shape. It felt like they chose the theme looking at me, my life, honestly it meant me in full force. I have managed well with change though I have had down falls. I cannot wait to attend the next one. so i am becoming a change agent and enforcing the same spirit in my environment, that is my home, my personal life, at work in my organisation. its a challenge, but challenges make us better, we realise how tough and strong we are. like a ball in full force thrown at me, am going to grab it with both of my hands and run with so much speed. i am going to not avoid it, for fear of being hit by it. that is me. am going to live my story, let them sing and tell my story while you listen. change is inevitable.

as we belong

seeing the sun rise each morning, i know i will see it set again each dusk. with you in my thoughts the whole time. images of you sparkling like its rays. foreve in my heart, forever in my mind, forever in me i pray you will be. as we belong. the bedroom light i see each evening when i come home, from my bedroom window. the pictures of me, the picture of you hanging on the wall, i see each time i enter the bedroom. i smile and just look far ahead in the future, our future. because that is what you are, we are my future. we will be. as we belong. that last glance and prayers i say, each time i leave the bedroom, my house. that i return with same love and well being. we will be. as we belong. the side of my bed, the side of my pillow. rests assured we will be, as we lay, we will be. as we belong.

change

what is change? i learnt a great lot of stuff i have always thought simple, only to realise it can kill me. i learnt what change, is. i learnt how it can kill me if i dont embrace it. that i have to make choices that will determine the kind of that transition, whether into the next better phace of my life, the next badder phase, into the future. or the back into the past. i have to manager change very well because change is evetything, and it is everywhere. infact i am a change agent, just since 2007begin. are you?

She sat there in that Air Botswana room She felt so alone She wondered if what she heard was true,He had a heart of stone.They said he doesn't fall in love,That he leaves when he gets bored.She wants to know while she's still high up.So she's not crushed like before.She thinks about him constantly.They see she's crazy about him,They said he's only a little attracted,And he'll just want to be friends.She doubts she can steal his heart away,Or make him feel the same inside.She loves to see him everyday But her feelings,she has to hide.As they sat there in that empty room,She had so much to say,She wanted to tell him the truth But she's not sure he'd stay.If he will not fall in love She'll turn her heart to stone,So when he says she's not good enough,She won't be feeling so alone!

2007.begin: what is love.

2007.begin: what is love. from quincy with love. i love the love that loves me

what is love.

In the ancient elapsed historythere is this sad love storywhen love was kind of a sin& inequity was always there to winjust two dared to face the rules..to ignore what all people know..they believed that their sacred love was above this law..no man is to love a woman...no woman is to chose her man..no! secret love is to grow...just rules to follow..the father is to accept..the mother is to chose..and the son..the daughter..have their voices to lose..all the generations accepted that...no voice for them...no ear to listen for fact..they must accept and go on with what is commanded...and their life with sorrow..has always been endedbut then..the two angels..a boy and a virgin with no 1 to defend....loved each other a lot..wanted their love to be a legendfight-ed for that..but no one accepted their unblessed love for sure..and shall their hearts to be 1 part..1 piece to moor!the king heard the immoral! newsand the two shall be prepared to abuse!!they knew that..and decided to run away..they must be free...they are in a bay...before the sunrise..and they are just with each othertrying from the prison from that kingdom to get farther..well! the same as for the youth...for the ppl their..the big.. the ..small head is searching for them..no one can this news barethey are running on their legs!!by their hearts..by their love..the others after them but with horses..with envy..thats kinda rove!but in that kingdom and we all know that rule..love is a sinso angels shall be catch-ed...love is to lose..envy is to winknow they are in the small cage...nothing btw them only a wall..and the king's rage!!the first two..to disobey the rules..the last for this age..let them be a lesson..shall they both pay the wage!they are in the middle of the court...waiting for their gruelingfor their souls..to be executed..for what they did..for their love feelingthis is horrendous..but tho they are happy..cuz nothing 2 separate them only death...this was the promise btw them....so execution in their world is a bless...he will be for her..and the same she will..and their will be no creature to nill..looking into each others eyes..with a smile..and a tear..they didn't think about the pain when the thug will cut their heads..no fearand as the sword cammed closer to their neck...they smiled that calm love smile..that was a beck..to tell each other that in seconds they will be 4 ever together...upon ppl watching their heads rolling on the ground..down to the nether..they was above their bodies..angels each with a wing..watching the poor people...feeling sorry for that king..that never felt with this bless..and shall they be together..shall their love be a myth...and they will be 1 part for ever Do you have brains to crack the meaning of this letter and imagine of us being

i am feeling like mingling with the new crowd of people i dont know. i am tired of the faces i see everyday at work at home. so i left home this afternoon to want to blend, with the new crowds of people in my world. i passed the center of multitudes of them watching some music artists performing, i wanted to stand and watch with them ,but the sun is just too scortching for my fragile skin. i blame myself; i have my bare top and my blue jean shorts, and my hair is loose, i dont have the shade or umbrella. but i can hear the sounds from the huge machines playing from here. am at a hotel's net cafe, i wanted to chat to some friends and my lover who seem to be outta line. but i left some messages. i love communicating. it keeps me in touch with everyone else out there. i love writing, it keeps me alive and moving. i love you too.

am happy

i look around suddenly am happy i sigh heavily suddenly am happy i wave my hand to a friend, a stranger suddenly am happy i blink my eye suddenly am happy i laugh out loud suddenly am happy i smile to a friend, a stranger suddenly am happy i touch a baby's fingers suddenly am happy i touch my teat suddenly am happy. i look up the clear blue sky suddenly am happy i look further up the horizon suddenly am happy i watch the aircraft take off suddenly am happy i wave the passengers on board suddenly am happy i look around me in the vast airfield suddenly am happy. i read my poetry suddenly am happy i read your poetry suddenly am happy i read on my blog suddenly am happy i read on your blog suddenly am happy i look at my pictures suddenly am happy i look at your pictures suddenly am happy. i stare at myself in the mirror suddenly am happy i look into my eyes suddenly am happy i look into your eyes suddenly am happy. i look around my room i see my bed i watch my tv i listen to my music i hear my neighbour singing along suddenly am happy. i see myself bathing i see myself getting into bed i see myself snuggling under covers i find myself sleeping i find myself dreaming about you i find myself awake at dawn suddenly am happy. i watch cars speeding off i watch kids play i watch you i see the world am in i see myself in the world suddenly am happy.

are you working, i pray you arent are you engaged, i wish you arent are you busy, i hope you arent are you commited, i pray you arent. because i'd love to be with you. because i'd love to see you becuase i'd love to be around you because i'd love to be right whre you are i'd love to have you. am proposing for some time with you am proposing for some moments with you because i'd love to have you. a chance to know you a chance to know me to know each other to give each other a second chance. because you are the last thinnest thread am holding onto because its you whos holding me back because its you whos making me look at the sun when it rises each morning because its you whos saying there is so much to give in me

the moment they walk in and sit if not lean for a clear and closer view, i am on full alert. we have an instant easy connection. muscles that control my smile ache. i feel light beaming out of my body. i am in full control of giving and sharing. all these i cant help. i enjoy the swing. i give special service they can never get elsewhere. i look them right in the eye. kingdly ask how i can be of help. what they want. i gently deliver and say to them, what will always bring them back./ they walk out, pleased.

dont you forget how we met

dont you forget how we came to be

because i will never forget

because it is not like any ordinary

at this moment i am feeling at my weakest and fragile because i feel sorry

at this moment my heart is aching because i feel bad

at this moment iam failing to understand why i cannot be forgiven because i deserve to

everybody is forgiven for,

everybody is asking for forgiveness,

everybody does wrong,

everybody hurts,

everybody feel.

and they are forgiven.

sometimes i wish i never loved because loving is painful

sometiems i wish i never felt because feeling hurts

sometimes i wish i had everything because i'd have you

sometimes i wish i'd be your favourite because you are my favourite

everybody has their own favourite one.

my heart beats like am frightened,

my face is red like am crying

my lips are dry like am nervous

my eyes are red like i been crying

my eyes are teary like am hurting

my mind is blank like am insane

everybody is feeling.

i want to have you

i want you to need me

i want to hear you

i want you to hear me

i want to love you

i want you to love me better

everybody loves their love.

i want you to care

i want to care too.

i want you to feel appreciated

i want you to feel cared for

i want you to feel needed

i want you to know i am here

everybody is there for their love.

i have been hurt

you were there

i have been crying

you were there

i have been there

everybody has been.

There was a point I wanted to really give in and walk away but I couldn’t. The point in time I wanted to shout out loud but I couldn’t. I wanted to so much stand strong but I couldn’t. The queue was so long and the heat unbearably scorching. I wanted to take a step ahead of me but my strength failed me. I was so tired and all I wanted to do was collapse. Do u know how it’s like waiting for something you don’t know, waiting for something you are not sure of. Something somewhere in your heart you know belongs to you, something somewhere in the world is coming to you, and something deep in yourself says you know you cannot give up. Its too early for you to be giving in. And then with all the might u don’t know where u get from, you close your eyes and just go on and listen to your heart. Your mind tells you it’s the right thing to do. Right now I am feeling empty, I am feeling empty because the void isn’t filled up anymore, and it’s a huge one. I am feeling empty because my room is empty; there is a huge space that’s not filled up anymore. I am feeling empty because my bed is so huge I cannot fill it up it alone. I am feeling empty because my world is empty;-my office is empty, my dish is empty, my tear gland is empty, my dustbin is empty, my pot is empty, my stomach is empty, my pocket is empty, my desk is blank, my mind is blank, my friend is nude, every piece is bare. Come fill in my world.

day by day i think of you

the soft purr of rain

my eyelids get heavy

as the raindrops urge them to close

my mind drift to that day.

day by day i think of you

the video plays in my mind

the scenes go on and on in my eyes

day by day i think of you

i relive the day

i dread to forget it

yesterday was good

i walked alone

i watched the world around me

i watched the kids play, the dust rising from the ground

i listened to their voices, they talked and shouted from the playground

dust rising from their feet.

yesterday was good

i watched the sun set, the horizon pinkish orange rays

i watched the traffic lights from afar in the city

i watched the taxis drive by from, to town

i watched everybody hurrying home, from town

i listened to their voices, they talked in lower tones.

yesterday was good

i watched the women and men pushing wheelbarrows home,

from fetching water from public water pipes

i watched boys riding home in donkeycarts,

from fetching firewood in the lands..

yesterday was good

i walked alone back to the homesteads

i watched grandma make some fire

i watched my younger brother chase after hens and the rooster

i listened to his voice, laughing and giggling

i watched my younger sister kneeling down blowing the firecoals

i listened to the puff of air from her lungs blowing.

yesterday was good

i inhaled the smell of dust and dry air

i smelled the homestead dust

i heard the homestead noise

i watched grandma by the fires making some coffee

i sat by the fires sipping my coffee

i watched the fire burning

i looked up and felt at peace

i saw the dark sky

i felt at home.

yesterday was good

i retired to bed feeling all good and warm

yesterday was good.

there is

there is a star at night at dawn follow the glitter of it at night at dawn there are rays at dawn at dusk look up the horizon and see the beauty of it there is a bright new day in the morning at noon follow your dream and reach out to the unlucky there is you at the end of theday at lifes end look back and learn from it all this is some life you are living live if fully and happily because it is yours, trully yours.

flying without wings

would you come with me if i was to fly away? would you be part of me if i had to fly away? would you die with me if i had to? would you laugh with me if i did? would you cry with me if i did? would you be at peace with me like i am? would you just be with me?

we belong

when we sail with the sailors when we lie with the liars when we say the saying we belong with them. when we love with the lovers when we love the love that loves us when we fly with the fliers when we soar with the eagle we belong with them. when we sing with the singers when we cry with the heartbroken when we go with the travellers we belong with them.

the waters run by the puff of air is refreshingly dam and sweet the ground and earth are appetizingly damp the light the sun shines the colours the sky is the stars the moon gleam days glow in amber shadows and shades move objects shift as time swiftly ticks as we celebrate beautiful life as we feel gorgeous as we calmly blend in with nature as life slowly moves on as night comes, we will slumber to rest, hoping and dreaming for a better world.