my deep chambered heart angel

It may be easy to look around our world today and see the appearance of chaos,difficulty and strife.Yet,when we come from an open heart,we can also see our opportunity to love all things into balance,joy,harmony and peace.This planet does not need more visions of desperation,fear,doubt and hate...it requires an abundance of love,especially unconditional love,to heal and restore the beauty contained in every moment. This becomes the easier path once we take the first step and begin to share our love.When we bring unconditional love back into our personal,professional,community and family lives,we begin the journey of restoring wholeness and happiness to our planetary adventure. Of course it takes determined effort on our part as the old ways of being are quick to return in our mind.However,this effort to love is rewarded with a new perspective on everything and all life benefits as a result.Love is such a beautiful expression Pulani.When we feel the passion of romance, the gentle touch of kindness,or the simple gaze of a willing smile,we are lifted into a higher awareness of life’s potential.In these precious moments,the impossible melts into infinity itself where all things are possible.We instantly remember what matters most is this love that unites us and assures us that all is well.At the core of our being,we intuitively know we are love.Not just an external expression of love that we equate or define as a loving act,rather the grander love that is unconditional.This love knows no bounds or limits,causes our heart to beat,our body to feel and our mind to think.It animates us and inspires us.Such boundless love literally gives us the freedom to explore the very depths of our reality.Without it,we cease to exist.With it,we soar to amazing heights of experience.Love is silent,yet beckons each moment.Ours is not a paradox,it is an invitation. Love does not intrude since it is ever present.There are lots of smokes in the air; smoke from a chimney where a chef is making chicken tikka,smoke from forest fire,smoke from cars exhausts,smokes from cigarette puffing and smokes of real love.It's ones duty to use the nostrils correct and smell the right thing just as you may make love in the dark...not seeing anything buy going through evrything smoothly in and out.It knows its pitch of course LOL.It merely calls to us and asks that it be included in our awareness through every thought,feeling,word,deed and action.What could be easier?In this physical world we have become so far removed from this intrinsic aspect of our nature that we have forgotten its existence and importance.Instead,we frequently replace true love with our sensory notions and expectations and limit our expression to a few physiological,mental and emotional acrobatics.These demonstrations are an artificial version of love and are symbolic tokens at best. Naturally,they contain the seeds of a grander love; however we usually do not nurture or cultivate unconditional love long enough to experience its potential in us or our relationships.Who among us is courageous enough to remember the truth of love?Shall we be so brave as to be the first to embrace and accept ourselves as potent beings of love? Are we willing to share this limitless expression to each and every one around us....without expectation of anything in return?Can we be so bold as to forgive? So outrageous as to accept and embrace the same potential of love in others? As we grow through life,let us contemplate and invoke this grander love. This time of year often brings travel,traditions,family and unity to the center stage.For many,it is an opportunity to gather and share our symbolic gifts, stories and personal experiences.We come together to celebrate as one and connect with those near and dear to us.Goodwill is our theme as we more readily open our hearts and naturally embrace each other in mutual brother/sisterhood during this period.Within these moments,remember that you carry a special and unique gift that has a wondrous and amazing quality; it is always available,has no cost,cannot be bought,stolen,bartered or lost,it replenishes itself without measure no matter how much of it you give away,and it seeks nothing in return.You can easily bestow it to yourself and everyone around you and,while doing so,the whole world simultaneously benefits.It is the simplest gift anyone can give that never needs to be wrapped or unwrapped.It is unconditional love.When we come from our heart of hearts and share the boundless love for all life, we know that all is well and that our very existence is enough.We see the reflection of our own nature in the eyes of another and this timeless love instantly balances and heals our reality.Consider bringing your special gift into all of your experiences.Share the love that you are without condition and witness the transformation in everyone and everything around you.Be the one who knows what the real secret is to life and let the twinkle in your eye be the ribbon of light that awakens another to their potential.You are the light and love of the world,always have been and always will be. Shine your light this season,as well as all year long,and give the simplest gift of unconditional love to everyone you encounter. What is it about life that is so intriguing and at the same time,can be seemingly so difficult?One moment we appear to be happy and content and the next can bring utter chaos.We can move from joy to anger in a split second or find ourselves deeply mired in wallowing grief and despair for no apparent reason.Are we finally willing to understand what motivates these experiences at a causal level or are we content to react to every effect we encounter for the rest of our lives?Perhaps we can begin understanding the mechanism and driving motivation behind our personal and planetary story and re-member ourselves as part of a greater adventure and collective whole.Maybe it is time we embrace unconditional love at a causal level.Most of us spend our day in some form of reaction to conditions,people,places,and things all processed through our thoughts and feelings.Thinking our way through each circumstance,we attempt to follow a logical pattern and draw a reasonable conclusion to make sense of life while our feelings flair up constantly and often unexpectedly,holding us emotionally hostage in ways we don't even realize.This continues until the next thing comes along and grabs our attention and we head off in another direction.Rather than being fully present in the moment,we compound this process by frequently looking to the past for a sense of direction and stability or daydream a future potential all in hopes that somehow the past or future will free us.When life becomes overwhelming,we combat the resulting chaotic and confusing series of ongoing reactions and unresolvable scenarios by trying to numb,medicate,stimulate or sedate ourselves with an infinite array of methods that further remove us from the reality of reality.Sound familiar Pulani? Add to this mixture the rapidly changing dynamics of our increasing global awareness where we are no longer just dealing with our immediate lives and that of our community,we are faced with the daily issues that plague humanity on a scale far beyond our comprehension much less our conceivable ability to do anything about it.Or so it seems. There is a different way to approach life that can make sense of it all and bring us the peace,harmony and unconditional love we all crave.What we are really looking for in every experience and encounter is the awareness of love.Not just ordinary love,romantic love,or a superficial validation of love,we are looking for the genuine expression of love without condition or limits.At a core level and at the very center of our being we know this to be true; unconditional love is what we are here to experience.Just hearing or reading the words together "unconditional love" you instantly know and feel the intuitive nudge that makes these two words something more than unconditional and love.The funny thing about unconditional love is that it is already within us.It has never been anywhere else.Despite our life-long effort to find it outside ourselves in the people,places and things we continually run around creating,we can never "get" unconditional love from others.As children we expected our parents to be the examples of this type of love without conditions,yet it was never expressed or passed along to them either so they had no way of sharing this wisdom.Now as adults,we continue to search through our relationships with everything in the physical--whether person,place or thing,hoping beyond hope to find this limitless love.

Simply look around and you will see ample evidence that humanity does not currently understand unconditional love,where it really is and how to express this amazing potential.Yet....Pulani,Yet!Consider opening your heart to allow unconditional love to flow once again from within you and experience love of a new magnitude.Become the cup that overflows with this vibrant energy and the world will respond in delight.Forgive and release your attachment to pain,suffering,fear,doubt and separation and take the first step to generate this boundless love.Radiate your love without condition and through you humanity will finally come to know and experience what unconditional love truly is. We are at a beautiful moment on this planet where a new world is being birthed based on integrity,dignity,harmony,peace and love.The most obvious signs that this is well underway is that everything is changing and nothing seems to make sense.In fact,in many ways it appears to be the total opposite of an emerging new world.We are witnessing lies,deceit,greed,extreme wealth and poverty,sickness,destruction,dis-ease,dis-honor,addictions,abuse,and environmental chaos,along with countless other named and unnamed calamities and certainly little evidence of peace or love.Yet appearances can be deceiving in themselves and what we see and perceive is only a tiny fragment of the bigger picture.Over the past several years,one of the regularly recurring themes I've encountered is that so many people I've connected with are hopeful of a better world and at the same time they are sincerely troubled by the one they appear to be presently experiencing.

They know in their hearts that life is not meant to be a struggle filled with so much fear and doubt,yet they find it difficult at times to reconcile the seeming chaos and atrocities that are bombarding them from every seeming angle internally and externally.What if we stepped back and set aside our endless judgment for a moment and looked at the bigger picture?Pulani,I wanna ask just one question....what if we stepped into the realm of our heart and began to listen to its wisdom?When we stop and truly and genuinely look around,what do we see and what are we really experiencing?What is our mental and emotional filter of life and how is this affecting our current perspective?

Do we perceive our reality as an observer or are we still allowing ourselves to be caught up in the drama like a character actor in a play?If it is the latter, do we know how to shift our perspective to see a larger view and a greater whole?Is there a way that we can connect with the real peace and love that already exists within?Is unconditional love a key that unlocks this potential? Our mind has been the thinker for millennia and now it is time to move our energy into the heart and begin to think from this vantage point.By expressing from the heart,we can do something different in our own lives to shift our experience and in turn,the reality around us.Coming from unconditional love,we move out of the duality and polarity of right and wrong,good and bad,and begin to share that which we already are...powerful,wise,loving and lovable beings of immense talent, creativity,compassion and strength.Not to mention,individuals filled with integrity, dignity,harmony,peace,and love. Shifting from one reality to another always includes a phase where the old gives way to the new and this often takes on the momentary appearance of chaos, strife, the need to let go of the known and a courageous willingness to allow the new to manifest. Underlying this or any transition is the loving intelligence that guides us between worlds and emanates from our own heart. No matter what the appearance, the heart knows the bigger picture and from this grander perspective we can make a profound difference.Pulani,make a choice today to suspend judgment and relax into what simply is. Let go of what you mentally think is going on and center your awareness in the heart. Be present in the now and experience the only moment that is real and tangible.Breathe.Allow.Be at peace and you will know peace.Share your unconditional love and the world will know love. You are the one birthing this new world and I am honored to be in your presence. Perhaps the greatest awareness we can focus upon in our life is the wisdom of unconditional love.It is a simple choice each of us can make that leads to profound change and births a new reality within our present moment,the only moment we ever truly have.It is also a personal choice that affects our collective world in amazing ways by restoring the natural balance inherent in all things. Yet,what does it mean to love unconditionally? For many years I have marveled how people respond when I mention these two words together...surprisingly,often heard or considered for the very first time. There is a vibration and acknowledgment that reverberates through the person's being in that particular moment that the single word "love" never achieves. Uttering and contemplating these combined words invokes meaning that is felt at our deepest level.It is a universal understanding of our core essence that knows beyond knowing and fills us instantly with understanding,compassion,joy and harmony.It is the "unconditional" aspect of the phrase that leads us into new territory that we rarely,if ever,consciously travel in our daily life. Ironically,loving unconditionally is nothing more than a shift in our perspective since it is already within us.We bring it to the forefront when we decide to release the layers of guilt,shame,judgement,hatred,anger,worry,fear,doubt and other similar limiting beliefs we have allowed to fill our daily thoughts,feelings and routines.These limiting perspectives have no power other than what we give them through our attention.If we believe them to be true, they take on that energy to validate our creative expression.What happens if we choose to forgive and release them and place our attention on unconditional love instead? Letting go of our attachment to conditioned responses frees us from our past and allows us to dwell in the realm of unconditional love where all things are possible. When we come to love ourselves without limit or condition,we easily view the world from this compassionate foundation and joyfully share our love to others without condition.This gives freedom to everyone and everything around us as we cease placing our limitations on them too.Think of the layers of limitation we have accepted over our lifetime alone and in turn,how many people we have affected.We can end this cycle by choosing a new way through self acceptance and unconditional love. Heart to heart a new world is emerging as we once again recognize our potential to love unconditionally.Oh,there are still plenty of examples that appear less than loving,yet they are only our past limiting thoughts and feelings revealing themselves from a former time when we believed in a conditional life.Now we can love them as aspects of ourselves that reflect who we once were when we believed in limitation in a similar way. Never before have so many responded to their own inner urge to shift their awareness from a fear-based reality to one of unconditional love.We are in the midst of the most profound time ever known upon this planet...the moment where we return to unconditional love and become that which we always were,divine beings of exquisite creative potential. What will you choose Pulani?Can you love yourself so deeply and so freely that you see yourself in the eyes of another?Will you remember in each moment of your day that humanity is filled with individuals wanting to know what and where unconditional love really resides just like you once did?Show them through your strength and courage and release a wave of love that envelops each in a loving embrace from the heart. Thank you for being the beautiful you that you are! I am writing to you for your personal contemplation.As the world is rapidly changing and there is once again a seeming increase in confusion,tension, polarity and fear,I would like to send a different message to each and every one of you recalling the potential to love unconditionally.You already know that my vision is to "inspire people to love unconditionally" and it has been my personal journey to share a timeless and simple message that love is indeed possible.Well,the message now requires action by each of us to fully realize this potential.It is perhaps the most critical time we have yet encountered on the planet and it will take the personal strength of each to lift the world into a higher perspective in the coming days.Behind the many evolving news headlines is a bigger movement attempting to encourage a level of fear and hopelessness to permeate our consciousness into believing that we must be afraid of everything and everyone.This not-so-subtle effort is hoped to keep people from realizing their personal potential to make a difference...and the TRUTH is you do! It only takes one to simply realize that love is more powerful than fear and the game is done.Did I say it was easy? No,in fact,it may be one of the greatest challenges you may ever face.To discover and express love in the face of fear and doubt takes enormous courage and strength.Yet,I know clearly that you are up to the task.This is no longer a time where we can sit idly by allowing our attention to become engrossed on the negative images and stories of others,or continue to live in our own fear,doubt and limitation.Look behind the headlines and images being projected.Then look within and understand why we allow doubt and fear to capture our imagination and release these emotional bonds to the past.

When we can accept our ability to change our personal perspective,we change the outcome for all.I encourage you to become an observer in the coming days and see where your thoughts and feelings are focused.By beginning with this first step,you will add to your awareness of love and affect people within your circle in an exponential and positive way.People thousands of miles away will instantly benefit by this love just because you were willing to go beyond your limited perspective to understand a bigger picture.

Thank you for considering my unusual and timely request.The earth awaits your next thought and feeling of love and forgiveness.Peace does prevail. At the weekend I thought alot of things in store for us in the near future.Today,I've collected my thought about our opportunity that could go to waste if we aren't careful...and put it down for you. May the Lord be with you...Amen Q

It's pitch dark outside, I sit in a corner.. like a stone, between you and reality i'm torn, tears continue to stain my cheeks, as i struggle to hide from you, No, i am not weak.And then you come, pull my fears away, as you hold me tight, "God, let time freeze itself", I silently Pray.My head and heart, each speak a different tune, you lean closer to kiss, I look away, you're dreaming i tell myself, This cannot be true. And when i'm all convinced, this isn't for real, you come and kiss me on my neck, and change the way i feel.I fight my thoughts of letting you go, In the mad rush, i forgot to say no, As our bodies unite, two souls become one, I can feel how much you need me, I know this isn't for fun.Empowered by passion, Embraced in lust, We are engrossed, In quenching each other's thirst.Your grip on me becomes tighter, I feel my body melting in yours, The sun has begun to rise, I can once again feel my fears, The ones that vanished,just cause you were near.And now i know, that you have to go, you say you have to leave, and kiss me once again, I try to stop you, but all in vain.Lonliness begins to creep into me, now that you have gone, I curl back to that corner of mine, once again i have become a stone.

on the highway

at high speed we travel to the destination, we go far away from the land we are put at. the unknown world unfolds before us at high speed. we cannot wait to see the next world coming, so we swiftly fly on and on. and there are potholes and hiccups delaying us.

its not always a smooth sailing to our dreamland.

my times

and then the good times go by, the good days pass by, the moments and memories are kept safe as cherishable ones, not on video, not in pictures only, in your heart you have them, in your mind you have them, in heaven they are there as the one above had it all planned.

for friends we know, and we knew, for our loves we love, and we once loved. for parents we have, we had. for guardians and teachers we have, we had. the paths we follow, we followed, the one above knows and knew all about.

and it is not the time to sit and worry about all those, we begin to realise it is a game of chess, we cover all the moves to win. we realise we have to make smart moves, and check mates.

am closing my eyes to enjoy the day as i feel the energy of it is splendid, i feel my novelity so strong the freshness of it smells great, this is life and for the time being am the queen, my serenity rules and you oblige as nothing feels right except that.

my friend and my lover, my family and to the one above, i give it all to you. for the support has been awesome.

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i waited at the bus terminal with my friend, from around 0800 pm, they said it was arriving around that time to the next hour. i couldn't compose the excitement in me, and my friend too, was as much as i was. it was so cold during that month of June and the day 25th, the night was so cold and my friend began to doze, while each car that drove by, each bus that arrived, and each call that came though my handset, i prayed it was him. my friend gave up and said she was going home and if i wont come she will keep in touch, and i waited. it wasn't yet in me to give up, not on him. when it finally arrived, it was 1050pm. excitedly i ran to the arrivals, and each passenger coming through up to the last one....., i could not believe it. he was not there. he was not in the bus. i even went inside to check, i asked the drivers and all they said was if whoever am looking for is not in the bus, they don't know where they would be. inside, i was burning, i was bleeding. i went home,i took the cab and the driver could not see the tears streaming down my cheeks. i tried his phone and all i got was a voice mail box, until the following day. when my friend phoned to check how everything was, I LIED! i told her he had arrived and was at home sleeping,( i was on my way to work.) i felt so terrible lying, and i pretended to be over the moon, my friend was excited too. i wondered what might have happened, his phones were off and there was no single mail from him at all. i started getting all these funny thoughts, then i contacted the office of the embassy from his country. i gave them his names and contacts for them to check if he ever left the country, i was so concerned. i thought of him being stranded somewhere else, being held by the immigration officials, maybe his travelling documents had problems, maybe there had been an accident. all the negativity came into my head. because if he was alright, then he would mail or call me even from a pay phone. the embassy officials confirmed there has not been an accident in their routes but kept me composed, the lady there Daisy, was nice and it helped me. my friend said maybe he has gone overseas, and i saw the possibility of it so high. but can he do this to me? he said he was coming to see me? wherever he was, was he thinking of me? was he well? now its the 10th of July, and i feel sick, the feeling of waiting is never easy. with every flight that comes in, i suspect he is on it but i go through and find nothing nobody at all. i wish there were some answers to all this puzzle. there is only one thing i do now, the one thing i do each moment. i pray for his safety. the one above to keep him well.

Once in complete darkness,I opened the doorI've finally walked into light,living in colorI found happiness while taking my chance to exploreAnd I discovered a feeling I've never shared with another.It's like picking a beautifully perfect flowerThen putting it on display in a vaseOr finding a candy that's not too sweet nor sour,Every feeling I've ever had,I find it replaced It's that firework in darkness,the rainbow in light.The feeling of having a jar full of firefliesThat you've run around catching all night.A feeling like that,you can't just let fly byeOne in a million love is what I live forI found it right in front of meEven when I didn't know what was through the open doorI walked through and found it standing beside a lit up Christmas tree. It will forever remain in SpringMy flower on display will never dieLife is given to every little thingMy heart beats still,he makes it thrive.If ever my flower starts to wilt,or my fireflies dimOr simply bout of droughtOne simple meaningful kiss from himAll my worries,all my doubts are shattered all around,all about.Long after the day of the happiest of "I do's",Years after my flower,my fireflies,rainbows and sparks should have diedThey live because I gave my heart to you and only you,And with you and remain by your side,every part of me thrives.

Like spring rains,so gently fallingThey nurture flowers and love birds callingLike turtle doves,two lovers cooTwo Flaming hearts,we join anewLike summer suns,which warm so deepThey stir our passions and love to keepLike Eve and Adam the two first matesTwo Flaming hearts,new life createsLike autumn frost which chills the airThey change the leaves and a lover's careLike photographs of old are fadedTwo Flaming hearts,past love is jadedLike winter winds which blow so coldThey numb the body and chill the soulLike love once shared that now is brokenTwo Flaming hearts,that now lie frozen....