my rock

I saw the sun rise
I felt goosepums stand up on my arms
My hair sticking out nd my skin shrink
I had this awesome feeling looking up
I realised he was staring at me
He gives me a reason to believe

He is my rock, I call him my stallion
He is the love of my life.
My endless love
I am thankful
I am blessed to have him
I pray God to keep us safe and alive.

God knows

 
We normally think the grass is always greener on the other side but, fact is the waterbill is way too much higher there, so whatever situation we have is never too much for us to bear because God knows we can handle it.
That is why He let it be.

God's plans for us are huge and He knows our desires. Though....sometimes I question Him, I doubt His love and His ways and promises to us. Because i feel He has forgotten about me. Like this morning it hit me that I must be doing something wrong. I suddenly had a thirst for the word of God I realised I haven't been a good child in the eyes of the Lord I haven't been reading His word. I quickly grabbed my Bible and read 1Peter 15:7
I look around and I see situations and realise how God works His ways in people's lives but mine in particular what I desperately desire, a baby. I always pray to God to make me a mother. I pray for a miracle everytime that God open my womb, my fallopian tubes and make me fertile and capture the fertile sperm. I don't want to think that God doesn't want me to have children. Hes not that cruel. I just must believe that my time is yet to come and tht God knows about me.
For I know the thoughts that I have towards you,
Thoughts of peace, not evil. To give you hope
And a future. Then you will call upon me, go
And pray to Me. And I will listen to you.
And you will seek me and find me when you
search for me with all your heart.
And I will bring you back from your captivity.
Amen
That is God's promise. He will never leave me.
He has huge plans ahead for me....so I just have to pray...seek...and find Him.
Amen.

i thank Him

I thank Him

everything was possible for me because He made it so.

in this past years, and this year.

the strenght i had, to overcome my old fears, disappointments and downfalls.

everything He provided for, i am so grateful.

i honour Him.

i would not be, looking back......

because with Him nothing is impossible, so He made it so.

i am  thankful

for my safety and this chance.

for the job which i declare to rightfully be mine.

for my precious life.

for loving people in my life

when we know...

Knowing makes us better; it makes the world a better place to be

When we know, we do better.

Knowing makes us believe, it makes us better people

When we know, we do well

Knowing makes us believers

When we know, life gets meaningful 

When we know, we believe in us, we believe in what we do

We believe in our own judgement

we love the thoughts we have

we love the life we live

we live better and we love better

because we know....

she

when she talks to you, they have their moment

when she sings out loud, they have their strength

when she laughs out loud, they have their spirit

and then they cry, they heal and feel refreshed
when they hurt and are sad, they withdraw to their
own world of silence
where they find solace in their peaceful world,
far away  from the world, far away from everyone

injured sexuality

it is not that we are scared of pain, its only that deep down we have our own irritational fears.

Hurting and aching is not only physical, we are also wounded and impaired in other ways, but sexually is the hardest damage to mend. For starters, you are dazed and overcome by events of the injury. Deadened and frozen with disbelieve of the events of the injury, at the same time you are able to talk about it like it’s a movie you just watched, and it is the only matter to your heart. We are not wired on how to deal with sexual injury, so the best thing is to do what is best for us, being strong and getting help.

all help coming your way will not all be helpfull, it is up to you to filter all of it and make the most of it to your advantage.

acceptance of new identity

"I delight greatly in the LORD; my soul rejoices in my God. For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in robes of righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. Circumstances and tragedy leave us feeling dirty and damaged. And chronic pains of our past situations are an undercurrent to our total existence. We have difficulty believing our Savior Jesus Christ can accept us, like that. We dont see ourselves as precious holy children of God dressed in robes of righteousness. However after we read and reread about who we are in Christ. The more we study about our new identity and the truth that sets us free, the more we begin to accept it as true. Then we begin to realize it is Satan who holds up the picture of our past circumstances and situations, - to remind us of who he wants us to believe we are. But that is a lie. God took the truth and massaged it into our broken hearts like a healing ointment. He placed a princess's crown of beauty on our heads and washed away the ashes. He gave me the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and dressed me in a garment of praise instead of despair.